What is wrong with me

Well this is a rather awkward post for me because i have never blogged about my personal problems
First because i think it's kinda embarrassing and second because it was never quite a big deal to me
Until now .

It all started last year when i was in Form 4 .
I realized my English was deteriorating
My choice of reading materials became very elementary
I couldn't finish a book without losing interest halfway
At first i brushed it off as having a busy schedule
And then during the mid-terms , English slapped me in the face
I had scored a C .
A FREAKING C .
I was so devastated I thought I was going to cry right on the spot .
Not trying to brag but ever since kindergarten I have never scored anything less than an A for English .
So it was really quite a big blow for me

Okay so now I am a little distracted because there are a bunch of dancing juniors next to me HAHAHA

Back to the topic .

Last Monday , I participated in a district level public speaking contest .
I was only informed of this last minute .
I know this sounds like a bunch of excuses , but yeah nevertheless , I should be able to defend myself haha
First of all , this is my senior year , I AM GRADUATING THIS YEAR
I have never competed in any district level English competitions
And i was selected at the last year
Wtf people lolll .
BUT , this is not my first time on stage , so i do not have jitters or stage fright whatsoever
Anyways , i lost even before i started
( I went on stage , did my opening , and told the judges that I forgot my script . BEAT THAT )
It was quite a traumatic experience to be honest , but thrilling at the same time
Quite a shame that I'm graduating this year , I would've liked to compete again .

Anyways , the competition was really an eye opener for me .
There is a saying in Chinese that goes 一山还有一山高
which loosely translates into " there is always another mountain taller than this one "
It means that there will always be someone better than you .

I am grateful that I was given the chance to compete *and embarrass myself
But nonetheless , it showed me that i can do better

Well , bland and stupid ending , but lol whatevs KTHXBYE
LY xx

Lost

LOST LOST LOST
I FEEL LOST

I won't be writing some fancy-schmancy opening
I'm just gonna go straight to the point

* zz classmate is staring zz wtf

Okay as i was saying
LOST .

I feel stressed lately
Like physically and mentally
There is like so much subjects that is yet to be covered and I'm worried
I don't know what to do
I don't know which subject and which topic to start from
To top it all off , I've been assigned to a task that requires lots of general knowledge and bombastic words
My GK & English isn't that good but i didn't expect it to be THIS bad
Usually i have lots of random things going through my mind
*Ask my girls , they know how I randomly pop facts lol 
The assignment is due in 3 days and I have to re-write this whole sh*t
I AM WORRIED AS HELL

HOW AM I GOING TO COME UP WITH A GOOD PIECE IN 3 DAYS

WOW WHY IS MY ENGLISH SO GODDAMNED TERRIBLE

OH ENGLISH WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME WHEN I NEED YOU MOST

sigh okay i shall stop now and face this shit
Thank you for reading this whoever you are lol
Kay thanks bye xoxoxoxo

Throwback . 14

I feel like barfing as I'm typing this blogpost
Honestly , how gross can i get omgg

So it was like this .
I was checking out my Blogger profile and clicked some page
That's when i saw it
Omggg Google+ had saved my pictures dating back to 2011 !!
* It's kind of a big deal for me because that was the year i started going online and stuff

I went through all my old pictures and also Facebook posts .
I JUST WANT TO MURDER MYSELF

How on earth did I take all those selfies ?!
I DID'NT EVEN KNOW I COULD DUCKFACE LIKE THAT
Plus , it was still not yet the era of smartphones
We were still using them button phones with 3 megapixel phone cameras
SELFIE WITH A 3 MEGAPIXEL PHONE CAMERA CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT
And the way i edited those pictures .
The 14 year old me needs some serious slapping hahaha
I remember being introduced to a photo editing software : MeiTuXiuXiu <美图秀秀>
It was really popular during the time and lots of teens were using it .
I'm not sure if the kids nowadays still use it .
Probably using all the smartphone editors lol
* I'm using Camera360 . Sorry for being unfaithful , MTXX . Lolllll
When i first started out , I marveled the fact you can actually color your hair , add blushes and even colored irises .

Hahaha you can't blame me for being a fugly tween right

Besides , Photoshop was wayyyy to hard for me 

MTXX was so simple and in a matter of seconds I was hooked
I remember furiously editing and experimenting the software for a full week

And ohh my so-called "makeup"
HOW ON EARTH WAS I ABLE TO SPORT THOSE THICK EYELINER AND EYELASHES ?
I cannot even stand having eyeliner now omgg

I also saw pictures of my then “admirer” now turned confidante
What a long journey it has been for us huh .
I recall the first time meeting him .
I still remember him bugging for my phone number
* Yes we still asked for phone numbers at the time . No Wechat , No Whatsapp NO NOTHING
He wasn't all that good-looking at the time
* Materialistic bitch lol
But he was presentable

As for me , I only had eyes for guys older than me
* Not old men but you know like more than 14 less than 18 type of guys lol
So naturally he was always playing the role of my good friend
The last straw was when i told him about my made-up "boyfriend" so that he would stop bugging me
He responded by lying against the door saying : Wow , I'm hurt

Being the kids we were , we quickly forgot the whole incident ever happened and resumed being friends
Flash-forward 3 years and bam he's matured into a fine guy , fit figure & always with the trend while keeping it classy
*He used to be a skinny dude  . He had like a Captain America transformation thingy HAHAHA
And he's one of the closest boy-friend I have
Anyways , not many people know about this douchebag boy of mine and i hope it stays that way lol


Okay okay i think this unrelated story is done lol
I'm gonna have my lunch now
* Yay food
BYEEEE X

Random Rant : Horror Movies

Currently watching Insidious 2 with the cousins and I can't help but rant 

Okay horror movies

First things first

Why do you have to always buy a huge house in the country or somewhere secluded where you have NO neighbors around you ?

I mean like who does that ?

If a person really had guts to buy a ginormous house in a deserted place , ghost should be scared of you .

Or at least you wouldn't be afraid of hauntings . Loll

Next , DON'T CHECK THE NOISE OR GO TOWARDS IT !

Urgh I feel like screaming wtf at this .

Seriously if you're alone in the ginormous house , and you hear sounds *usually it's the attic , closet or basement , why the heck do you want to check the noise ?!

YOU'RE ALONE IN A DESERTED PLACE FOR NATURE'S SAKE !

That has to be saying something , right ?

GET OUT OF THE HOUSE !

DRIVE TO THE CITY !

GO TO YOUR PARENT'S !

RENT A HOTEL ROOM !

GO TO A FRIENDS HOUSE !

Whatever you do just get out of there .

Omgg if I were in my house alone and I heard sounds from my kitchen , I'd be screaming and running out of my house .

The craziest part is I don't even live in a ginormous house and I'm surrounded by neighbors loll .

Thirdly , one of the most common , annoying and stupid mistake they make in movies .

If you're being chased by a serial killer , TURN YOUR PHONE ON SILENT MODE 

And the dumbest part is , the phone seems to ring at the worst times EVERY SINGLE TIME . And thanks to ringing phones , lives have been lost .

Finally , Please , don't hide under the bed , or the closet or the toilet 

Put yourself in the crazed murderer's shoes .

If I were to kill a person , where's the first place I'd look at ?

Exactly . I've made my point , I rest my case .

So far these are the most predictable things I can think of at the moment .

There are soooo much more predictable scenes in most storylines so make sure you don't watch any horror movies with me or you'll end up ruining your horror movie experience .

That's all for now 

I LOVE RANT POST'S OKIE OKIE BYE .

The Amateur Post .

Uhhh okayyy
I realized that i haven't been blogging in quite a while .
I mean like whats the point loll ;/

Anywayss , currently blogging in school right now .
Gonna have my exams later
* Blahhh Arts . No " Art Cells " in me .
Urghhhh
A bunch of twerps staring at me blogging
* Like wtf NO DON'T STARE AT ME WHEN I'M BLOGGING

I really HATE it when people stare .
OH GOD NO DON'T STARE AT ME

Dangggg cant you see I'm annoyed
* currently typing and staring at them AT THE SAME TIME
but NOOOOOOO they still don't get the hint :/
and like OMG kid , im your senior
At least call me kakak or something instead of oi
Like wtf I really emphasize on manners a lot

* KILL ME

Anddd , i realize that i get annoyed easily .
A few days ago a really close bestie of mine told me about what she hates about me
I guess it's time i change my attitude .
NEW ATTITUDE MAKEOVER PLEASE .

I'll start when the exams are over loll
* Call me Queen Procrastinator too

Yeppp so that'll be all for now llollolol .

Random post .

Really really totally random .
Hahahaha
I don't have the mood to blog when i'm at home
But when Im in the IT lab , the mood just kicks in . IDK why . LOL

Woke up at 5:30 in the morning today .
First time doing my hair treatment
Gonna have to do this everyday
Thats what you get when you don't listen to mommy
and mess up your hair with multiple times of hair dyeing .

Anywayssss
feeling kinda moody now .
I guess it's true when they say
When you're happy , you enjoy the music
When you're down , you understand the lyrics
Hahahahhaha .
awkward LMFAO .

Actually , i have nothing to blog about .
All im feeling now is empty and moody .
Plus , i keep on blasting these sad sad music through my headphones .
Aaargh , so im prolly gonna die as a deaf brokenhearted person .
Hahahahah .
well , lame joke but that certainly cheereed me up * a little .
hahaha

Anyways , that'll be all for now .

Blogging from ze School IT Lab♥

Soooooooooooo
Its IT period and i'm blogging in my school IT lab .
Basically no one cares
but i feel like a boss * Dayymmmmnn #LikeALousai
Yea yea , i know hashtags don't really work like this in Blogger
But then again , who cares ?
Hahahahahahha .

My email is saved here
I don't know if the teachers can somehow hack into my blog :/

EVERY SCHOOL SHOULD HAVE I.T LAB LESSONS
WHERE THEY ALLOW THEIR STUDENT TO GO ONLINE !

This is what keeps me from coming to school
* lame reason , i know

Its really maddening when you have to use the old computer instead of the new ones
The keyboard that i'm typing on right now is really Middle Ages * you get the picture
It makes all those really loud sound when you type
*Hopefully i dont get caught because of it :/
Sooo , everyone in IT stream don't really listen in class
Who can when you have free internet access right in front of you ?
Currently having the hiccups but MY WATER BOTTLE IS IN MY CLASS !
GAH !
Water bottles are restricted in the IT lab
* Bet you knew that !

Im blogging about rubbish i know :/
But thats all i can manage since i can't log in to Facebook . :(

Tomorrow's the Inter-School Basketball Competition .
Kids from every school are probably going .
* I wanna go too :(

Support the Keat Hwa Girls Team ! * because my school ain't in this year :3
One of my friends will be in the team :D
Ooi Zhi Qing jiayouuu ! Bahahahahha

Thats all then peeps :3

Gwiyomi Fad . *Rant post .♥

Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

So basically , this is a rant blogpost

which means i get to rant and complain about stuff that i don't like *Yay !

Ranting about everything and anything is probably like my addict . Haha

*Evil much ?

You probably think i'm an ungrateful lil b*tch

But nope .

I'm actually quite content and happy with my life :3

So here goes .

Lately there's a new fad on Facebook called the Gwiyomi / Kiyomi dance .

It's not actually a dance :/

Basically , you just have to act cute

which is kinda what Gwiyomi/Kiyomi means :/

Sooooooooooooooo ,

there are like , what , 6 out of 10 people on Facebook making their own Gwiyomi version

and basically

I HATE IT .

It's not the song that i hate

But the facial expression and the duck faces they fake for the vid

IT IS ANNOYING , PEOPLE !

Not that i'm against acting cute and doing duck faces for poses and pics .

But it's different when you actually get to see them do the whole thing in the video . Continuosly

Which means you get to see the "Fakey-ness" of it

Here is one though

That actually succeeded in acting cute :P

Here's her Facebook link BTW

>> Click Me @ Katherine Park ♥ <<

People , can't we just enjoy the cuteseyness of the song instead of trying to make a version out of every single thing you see ?

Be original will you ?

Gahhhhhhhhhh !

—————— RANT POST OVER ——————

I ♥ Rant Post ! <3

Xoxo ♥ - 

Claire Lee